Isn't life like that sometimes? It's cloudy all around us, but the Son shines through!
I took this picture on my trip to the OBX right after my dad died. It was a time of a flood of emotions for me and my family. And it seems like life has been constantly changing for me since then.
It has been a time of renewal, of reflection, and of regeneration. Everything that was familiar to me has become foreign, and God is replacing it with the things that He wants in my path. He has challenged me to jump into thin air and do some things that man has criticized, but I believe He has smiled upon because it has caused me to trust Him and only Him.
When I quit my job, I jumped. And for three months I was unsure of the future. But He caught me yet again and now I am working in an incredible ministry and the blessings keep coming! I had to give Him the singing and music, and now He is rewarding me with invitations to share my praises to Him through song.
The main lesson I have learned is that I had to get over ME. Because what I want and what He wants for me are far too often completely different. He is still challenging me to let go of some things in my life that have become comfortable, or things that I may be afraid of letting go of or changing because of what people might say. I have had to learn that my purpose in life is to please Him, and to do the things He has called me to do. Although He does put people in our lives and He uses them, there comes a time when we may care more about their opinion than we do about His Opinion. And at the end of the day, I am accountable to Him and His Word.
Don't get me wrong about people...I know sometimes I think I know what's best for someone else and may get a little overbearing about it. But I know now all I can do is give them the Word and let Him work on the heart. And to realize that we are all works in progress - and instead of kicking each other when we are down, we need to kneel down and help each other up.
I am weary from kicking and being kicked...I am ready to kneel, and ready to reach out to the One who is kneeling beside me to help me up. I have been so tired lately from trying to do it on my own. I have learned that I need to rest in Him.
And I have learned that if my circumstances are weighing me down, maybe I need to change my circumstances. He will show me the ones I need to change, and the ones He wants me to be in.
Life's been cloudy lately...but the Son continues to shine through!
It's just what's on my mind.
